We all got our very own shadow side. It is the same one that makes us show a good dose of violent behavior towards other drivers in traffic, eat your sister’s chocolate cake (and blame dad for it afterwards) or simply trigger harming behavior that might cause pain to us or/and to others. But how can we accept, love and control the terrible monster that we can turn into? Continue reading
This is going to be a post on one of the oldest and the most popular topics of all times. I am quite sure that if you would dig deep enough in some Egyptian scrolls or Aztec stones you will find it somehow, somewhere. Love is with us from the dawn of humanity and it will be the last thing to go when the divine spirit will decide to burn as back to ashes for good.
Just as I was loosing all my hopes for Slovakian music scene (anybody who has ever seen DJ Rytmus would be on the same page) … I found Maok! (My hopes for Czech music scene are long gone)
You can find a lot of amazing music on their website http://maok.net/ including some downloads here http://maok.net/category/hudba-na-stiahnutie/ (second one from top is absolutely astonishing concert in a church)
The song that is attached to this post is called “Liecenie” which means “Healing” but I found most of Maok music literally soul-mending.
Hope you will enjoy this hidden gem of introspection music. 😉 Continue reading
I believe our personality is made up of many parts. Some parts are predetermined by our upbringing, some by our adult experiences, some can even be self harming. One of those is behavior patterns we adopted thanks to our inner fear. Anxiety can push us off our real life path and kept us hiding under the rock…
But… how to actually recognize those fears that are interfering with your life journey? It might be something rooted in your childhood or just a bad experience you once had and didn’t got the chance to cope with it properly. Most “popular” fears are Fear of loosing control, vulnerability, rejection of others, loneliness, emptiness..or just simple fear of getting hurt.
In this case our intellect is not always playing in our favor. It can easily rationalize our fear and create a behavior pattern. This pattern can become part of our self definition and once it gets there it will be very hard to get rid of it. Our mind got a lot of defense mechanisms to protect our self image.
This can go on for years and years. Fear can immobilize both physically and mentally. We keep living in our fear-shell where we are seemingly comfortable. But this sword cuts both ways. Maybe not immediately but sooner of later it will.
So what I believe is the the terrible price we are all paying for not facing our fears? It is us, restrained from experience we probably need the most to move forward in our personal development…
In Rider-Waite Tarot system the 7 of cups card represents a person standing in front of 7 cups filled with various desirable objects. The cups look almost identical and they are not grounded but floating in the air. In a sense they are actually out of reach of the person standing in front of them but still within his sight. The very simplified meaning of the cards is to have more choices then one or building a flying castles.
I would like to focus on the “more choice” side of the archetype. Friend of mine recently told me she is feeling like she has to discover all things that are here, don’t really wont to commit to one thing because she would feel like she is missing something..and I was thinking.. “missing what?”
Of course, when your life is consisting of repetitive stereotypes only that is a very troublesome BUT are you actually missing something by staying all the time at position 0? (yes, I am talking about Fool card) Isn’t that stagnation in the very same fashion?
As I believe the principles of life are universal and range from quantum physics to you having bad day. There is just one “Life”, one and only archetype that includes everything. In the light of this fact actually makes more sense WHERE exactly are you on your journey more then what are you following because it works on same principle.
It is like starting with a stamp collection…and then a coins collection… Different cups, but still the same experience of starting over and over again. Just like the cups on the 7 of cups card: identical and floating in the air, unless you go all the way down on your collector journey and turn it into real experience, then it doesn’t matter what are you collecting.
I used the “collector” metaphor to make the idea more “edible” but this can seemingly apply to other interests or even relationships in our life.
So I would say don’t be scared to get into some “heavy shit”. Yes, it can be a disaster, yes it can be painful and you might have to face your worst fears but as at the end of the day you only benefit from it. 😉